Silent_Riots

2001-11-27T20:14:00.000-08:00

Heartless

My teardrop burns a hole deep in the ground
Because were always separated
Now the pit of despair lies before me
And Ill throw you in and bury you alive
Ill send some roses, maybe they’ll help
Stop the hatred, the sadness, the chills
Peaceful sorrow does not exist
And now im fucking angry

Time is worthless
Its mind over matter
2 years apart
2 miles from my house
too long, too far for me
fuck your elders
they’ll die soon anyways
your young stay free
live life with no cares

what did you expect
when you went and said yes
was it right? Was it what you wanted?
did you think of that too?
did you think this was some game
to be played with and used?
Through all of your taunting
I can see your body
But I cant see your soul
Its eating me alive
The fact that your eyes
Are like razors cutting my heart into a million pieces
When you turn the other way

2001-10-07T19:07:00.000-07:00

i miss ya steveo

2001-09-24T19:40:00.000-07:00

hi lauren
gimme a call....
please

2001-09-24T17:07:00.000-07:00

hi steve

2001-09-12T16:01:00.000-07:00

is everything alright with u steve?

i hope the game went good
we sucked ass against parkland today.
jamie wasn't there so i played with sam..
we did alright. should have done better.
sigh. i'm so angry.

2001-09-11T17:54:00.000-07:00

why is blogger being such an ass?

hey i have a picture that i meant to
give to you today...tomorrow.

how are you doing?

2001-09-10T19:14:00.000-07:00

im always online!
we lost... 4-0
but i played about 65 minutes out of 80
at attacking center midfield... my fav position
i played pretty good today too
they were just good =(
sorry to hear about tennis!
yeah that would be hot to have you take pictures of us jamming =)

2001-09-10T16:25:00.000-07:00

i don't go online any more.
do you?

hope the game went good today.
our match was cancelled...bleheh.

oh wow, the sky is beautiful right now.
it's a pale pink.
i should go take some pictures.
but i need to finish my work.
some other time...

so it would be ok if i took pictures
of you and the guys jamming???
pretty please =)

2001-09-04T20:17:00.000-07:00

i was in the locker room!
we were watching the game film from the night game which i didnt see you at! =)

2001-09-04T19:08:00.000-07:00

i'm so glad steve is gonna be alright.
when is he coming back???

i've been meanin' to ask ya about kristin...
i wanted to know how things were going.
it sounds like everything is going just a ok
but i know what u mean about the missin'
her thing. sigh. sux.

how's soccer goin'?
and where were u today!
i was lookin' everywhere for you
at the stadium.

ya know a girl can really get
the feeling she's being avoided
with this kinda behavior!

2001-09-03T14:24:00.000-07:00

puck is doing better from the accident...
i think hell be ok, he shoudl be in school soon
i feel so guilty for his injuries... even though i know i couldnt have helped it
im sorry dood... i never wanted this to happen

anyways... school is in, its pretty cool actually
everyone is being really awesome to me this year
not a lot of assholishness going around or anything
im so happy for angie.. even though i havent talked to her lately
you and craig will have a lot of fun lauren! =)

im doing ok without kristin
but when i see her i miss her
its weird... i went to youth group and she was there
and shes so awesome to hang out with
but i dont feel the same connection (obviously)
i miss it, but i know that im happier without the relationship
it just sucks.

still skating all the time
workin on that backslide noseslide... oso close =)
i keep kicking my ankles asses but its ok

i almost didnt start at the first varsity soccer game
because i skipped a scrimmage after the accident
i needed to see puck because i wanted to know
if he would ever be able to see again
(which he can do)
i was sore from airbag impact,
and tired because i didnt get home until 4
but oh well... i talked to luna and it was cool
we won 6-4, and i got to play a bit
i didnt play too bad either
so it was sweet

overall, everything is going pretty well
i just dont wanna do my chemistry homework

2001-08-28T19:42:00.000-07:00

school
lol

2001-08-23T16:57:00.000-07:00

blHH!@H!H

2001-08-18T09:05:00.000-07:00

I did what I needed to do
the most painful thing ive ever felt
letting someone you like
know that you dont wanna be with them
but just wanna be friends...
im just glad shes mature enough
to understand my feelings
and still want to be close
and for that... im the happiest person
on the planet right now

2001-08-16T19:21:00.000-07:00

WAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2001-08-16T19:20:00.001-07:00

wah.

2001-08-16T19:20:00.000-07:00

wah.

2001-08-16T19:13:00.000-07:00

major (((hugs)))
i wub joo steveo!

2001-08-16T15:14:00.000-07:00

three important rules for breaking up
don't put off breaking up when you know you want to
prolonging the situation only makes it worse
tell him honestly simply kindly but firmly
don't make a big production
don't make up an elaborate story
this will help you avoid a big tear-jerking scene
if you want to date other people, say so
be prepared for the boy to feel hurt and rejected
even if you've gone together for only a short time
and haven't been too serious
there's still a feeling of rejection when somebody says
she prefers the company of others to your exclusive company
but if you're honest and direct
and avoid making a flowery emotional speech
when you break the news
the boy will respect you for your frankness
and honestly, he'll appreciate the kind of straight-forward manner
in which you told him your decision
unless he's a real jerk or a cry-baby you'll remain friends...

im in this situation
but with a girl
and im a wuss

2001-08-15T16:16:00.000-07:00

ugh soccer has been hardcore
im so sore... shoulda ran during the summer
being lazy was sweet though

i dont know what to do with my relationship
im feeling weird... or distant or something
but i also feel like i want to be.

and im not looking forward to talking to her...
i dont get it
for almost 6 months ive had no trouble
no fighting
no arguing
no boredom
and all of the sudden
its all come crashing down on me

im still not fighting with her
but im acting dumb and denying the situation
just acting quiet and not interested in her when im with her
tired all the time (which i am)

i know all good things come to an end
but is this the time?
am i ready for this?
i know i wanna be the nice guy and not break any hearts
but mine is drifting in other directions
help.

2001-08-15T16:13:00.000-07:00

angie! i love you!
gimme a call please!

2001-08-14T17:47:00.000-07:00

***warning***

temporary lapse of insanity approaching

***warning***

complete and utter nonsense ahead

***warning***

continue reading at own risk

and in

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ok so tell me why i have a problem dealing with this?
and i know i keep going on about it but it's because i'm
a loser and can't move on without causing substantial
stress and pain to myself before.

fuck.

why am i being such an ass? please tell me why.
i come up with all these reasons but i can't decide
on one but it can't be all of them because they
contradict each other...or maybe it is all of them because
i'm a giant contradiction. a god damn girl is what i am.
and it fucking sucks because i can't make up my freakin
mind. i don't know why i'm having such a problem getting
ahold of my feelings. i thought i always had a pretty good
hold onto what i was feeling.
obviously i was greatly mistaken

dude i'm talking to him now and i can't think of a freakin'
thing to say. and i don't know why. i NEVER had a problem
talking to him before NEVER. why now? because in my
head i think i have to have somethin gto talk about
and it's so ridiculous and i have no idea how to get past it.
what the hell is wrong with me i ask ya?

and i'm not really expecting an answer i'm jsut kind of throwing
this out into the cybver world because i know there isn't
an answer. i just need to get it together and stop being such
a whatever the hell i'm being.

so sorry for throwing a fit.
i'm going now.

***end of tantrum***

2001-08-14T15:58:00.000-07:00

so incredibly bored right now.

and i'm a moron you know?
just make up my mind right?
just get it over with
and stop thinking about it
and stop being stupid
stop over analyzing
stop worring
stop being scared
just STOP!

how was your day?

2001-08-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

steve rocks all

2001-08-12T19:02:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!
Been jammin' with Klammer, Linds, and Andrew
its pretty fucking sweet.
PFS...
gotta say the -ing in "fucking"
good times, great oldies, pineapple soda.
girls are like omelettes
you scramble them
flip them over
and add some cheese to them
PFFT! hehehe =)
just lame jokes from our jam sessions
which are awesome... i would give up soccer to play drums with them more often
weve been playing...
weezer - say it aint so
the ataris - i wont spend another night alone
green day - when i come around
and were working on
nada surf - popular
some nirvana stuff and some other green day songs
its really fun =D
anyways, yeah... soccer starts tomorrow
gross as hell. but it will be good
anyways, ill be back to rant and rave about conditioning
peace

2001-08-12T17:06:00.000-07:00

steve what have u done
dropped off the face of the earth?

jeez i was expecting to come home
and find at least one comment
from you. big =(

tennis starts tomorrow
oh joy.
and soccer for you.
keep smilin and it'll all be ok!!!

we will get together and work
on our work after practice sometime
this week k???

but i'm going to bed cuz i'm
totally exhausted from my visit
with my grandma.
talk to u later!!!

stop by tomorrow if ur around!
(the school that is)

2001-08-09T21:00:00.000-07:00

i called u and u weren't home!
jeez lol.

I wish i could have gone to warped =(
it would be so awesome to see GC, and
the ataris and everyone! sigh
next time.

i'm going to the beach on sunday!
wohoo! however i'll die from
sunstroke, dehydration, and sun poisoning
lol
OH WELL!

we shall hang out whenever i get ahold of u!
later steveo

2001-08-08T22:39:00.000-07:00

"id rob a kwik-e-mart for you"
hehehe i love it.
warped was incredible, especially
The Ataris
Fenix Tx
and
Good Charlotte...
they rocked out and it was sweet
skateboarding is becoming a daily activity...
i would recommend it if you are bored out of your mind often
its really fun =)
angie i gotta take you snowboarding this winter... it will be fun!
hehehe
oh by the way we didnt start soccer yet...
not until next monday (13th)
kinda hoping it never comes
but oh well....
i dont really have much of a choice
*sigh....
lots of weird shit going on
but i dont feel like posting it
its kinda personal
so ask me for details*
*(woah that came out of nowhere)
byebye!

2001-08-08T20:27:00.000-07:00

"i keep fallin'
in and outta love
with you.
i never
loved someone
more than i
love you."

freakin' awesome song right there.
it's alicia keys - fallin'

hehe anyways
the heat wave should be over by the end of the week
i didn't know u guys started all ready
we start next mon.

do u know we are going back the 27
and it's a MONDAY!
grrness

it's no fun bloggin'
without u steveo

2001-08-08T15:54:00.000-07:00

argh im back!
sigh...
why did summer have to get so hot now?
as soon as soccer starts, it starts to get like 95 degrees...
=(
oh well
i have tons of AP work to do
so angelise well have to do that some time =)
anyways, besides that
wow i have nothing to say
BLEH!

2001-08-04T14:14:00.000-07:00

i have an obsession with
=( lol
everytime i post there is a =(
after whatever i say.

i'm a crazy mo-fo! lol
no i'm not.

i'm just very bored and steve isn't
on and he's all cool and stuff
and hasn't talked to me in the longest
time he doesn't even blog me!
well he did they other day but still!!!!
lol

2001-08-03T12:38:00.000-07:00

steve your blog is scaring me.
it's going all funky and what-not.

=(

2001-07-30T12:00:00.000-07:00

where were you? =(

2001-07-28T18:59:00.000-07:00

what's going on?
i thought maybe that's why you
weren't on at all yesterday...at least when
i was...was because you were with
kris.

did something happen?
i'm going to play tennis with my dad tomorrow
morning, but i'll be home around 12
if you wanna give me a buzz.

i'm here for ya! (((hugs)))

but i have to go to bed now
i'm exhausted.
love ya

2001-07-27T20:23:00.000-07:00

Thats really cool Lauren...
but you do such a great job at making people feel better!
anyways
i need to talk to you anyways
not sure of whats goin on with my ree-lay-shun-ship...
desperate for advice!

2001-07-27T18:31:00.000-07:00

watching dave matthew's band on storytellers.
i knew i always liked them, but now i really
like them.

he is so funny! lol,
and i love his lyrics.

wouldn't it be nice to be able to write like that.

2001-07-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

know how we were talking last night
about ashleigh, and how she swings
mood to mood...well she's on the negative
side again.
it makes me so sad, to see her, anyone
in that much pain, with that much anger.

i feel like crying, crying for her.
so she didn't have to go through this all
the time.
but she puts her self through it time after time,
yet i still feel bad.
why?

here's a little freestyle for ya:

so much pain floating in the air
and some many people don't even care.
but i sit hear and listen, and read
and i still feel the need

to comfort and to help
and i always seem to dwell
on other peoples problems
and i make no difference to them

i want to cry and have their sorrows drown
cuz i've been there with that frown
feeling like no one understands
and nothing is left that can

make you feel better
but there is more out there
just look deep inside
and find the strength in ur mind

pull your self out
as foolish as it may sound
be true to your self
and leave the rest on the shelf.

sigh why do i even try...

2001-07-25T20:39:00.000-07:00

Heya...
I had a better day today,
probably because it wasnt the same old thing
driving around, not knowing what to do,
burning gas, and laughing at our age-old inside jokes

instead, i went to the lehigh valley mall and olive garden
with lauren... and it was a lot of fun!
(the funny thing is i think lauren is the only one that reads this...)
hehe

feeling better about myself,
im in a better mood,
all is good i guess =)

my grandmother is supposedly doing well
she walked into the house on her own today
so that was a really big improvement

i guess im gonna sign off, because im pretty tired....
but anyways
nite

2001-07-25T08:06:00.000-07:00

if you aren't doing anything
tomorrow or friday we can hang out.
it'll be fun lol.

sorry i wasn't there last night.
wish you could have vented with
me. i'll be around if you need me today.
i'm just gonna chill around home
because i'm so exhausted from yesterday.
i feel hung over from getting up so
early, going to bed so late
and being out in the sun all day.
i haven't been that hot in a really long time.
it was crazy. but i had fun.

i'll talk to you later.
have fun today,
and send me that poem if
you still want me to read it =)
cuz i'd love to!

2001-07-24T18:40:00.000-07:00

Hey again...
today was even more boring.
my friends that i usually hang out with
dont do much anymore
we just drive around and waste gas
and all of my other friends cant do stuff
or we never get around to doing anything
blah.

2001-07-23T20:27:00.000-07:00

Hey...
Another boring day with Steve.
Nothing much really happened
No good news...

My grandma is going back to her house,
but im not sure if thats good or bad.
shes 101 and really brittle
and shell have help 24/7 at the house...
im scared for her =(

i hung out with the guys again
but it was really boring
and hanging out around field hockey camp
isnt that great... i have a girlfriend...
and they have no chance
so at least we all have something.

kristin, still at camp...
i dunno whats going on.

not in a great mood
bye.

2001-07-23T10:25:00.000-07:00

steveoreno
what's going on!
lol.

i get to go to the store right now
and pick up stuff for the week.
wohoo exciting huh? lol.
did i mention i hate my car.
it doesn't like to start.
dumb thing.

i'll talk to u laters
and don't expect a phone call
i hate it and it hates me lol.

see ya

2001-07-22T21:35:00.000-07:00

hiya...
not much to say really
except that im extremely tired, and tonight was pretty fun

i went skating with the guys and boxed tyler,
but he punches with his forearms... nerd =p
and i still suck at skating...
oh yeah! i rode on a mattress tied to the back of a car going 50 mph
what a rush =)

anyways, lauren call me tomorrow or something if you have time,
i havent talked to ya on it in a lonnnnnnnnng time =)

im probably gonna get some people and harass steve at work
at thunder creek quarry,
and i have soccer at 6, which i still dont wanna go to.
im gonna find out whos going to camp though, and i might end up getting
an extra week of summer if i dont go
i think i really wanna go though because i need to get in shape
i also might be playing some tennis tomorrow if anyone is around,
and possibly purchasing a grinding rail or plans for a low box

alright... i dunno who reads this besides lauren, but its fun!
nitenite!

2001-07-22T18:56:00.000-07:00

a very tiring day today.
i feel dead.

i'm going to bed in like a half hour.
my feet are killing me from standing
in front of wal-mart for 3 hours.

i went to craig's!!!
we talked for 2 hours about nothing really.
but i did tell him about my phone
thing.
i don't know how i feel.
i don't know how he feels.
i don't know much of anything.

i'm guessing u got a phone call
since ur away message says u'll
be back later tonight.
it must be nice to have a life. lol.

i'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother!
i hope she's ok.
i'm thinking about her. (((hugs)))

for a pick me up watch "when harry met sally"
on tbs tonight at 10:05!!! lol

one of the best movies EVER!

2001-07-22T14:13:00.000-07:00

hiya...
i think im only talking to lauren so far, but hopefully some other people
can tune in on my life for a bit, even if its not that interesting =)

boring day today
but i got to see kris for a little bit before she goes to camp...
i guess ill try to go find some other people to have fun with tonight,
all my friends are working, out with other people, on vacation, or just doing something else
so it kinda sucks, so maybe ill go make some new friends!
...no i probably wont =p
but anyways, ill probably be around a lot tonight unless i get a phone call from someone i guess

oh, and just for me, keep my grandmother on mind
because shes in the hospital after falling and having a heart attack and shes kinda confused =(
thanks!

byebye!

2001-07-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

i'm so very tired right now.
didn't go to bed will about 2:30 lol
told u i was wired.

i figured i'd write something cuz ur so cool.
(not because i'm bored lol)

craig just asked me to hang out...
tell ya how it goes...

laters

2001-07-21T21:54:00.000-07:00

wow i'm so proud of u steveo!
u figured this blogger thing out...
well kinda lol.

and i'm so unbelivably
awake right now and i don't know why...
maybe it was those 3 glasses of ice tea i
had before "bed" lol

guess what i did today!!!
cleaned! omg how much fun does
that sound like. oh i know TONS!!!!

soccer rocks the whole freakin' world!!!
even though i haven't watched a match in
god knows how long, but it still is the
bestest in the whole wide world!!!
and and and i can come watch ya!!!
which gives u even more reason to play!!!

oh and i have to meet kris still!
she seems like such a sweetie, and
if u like her i'm sure she's a cool cat =)

we'll hang out next week and practice my
phone talking skills =)

laters steve-o!

2001-07-21T21:24:00.000-07:00

Hey guys whats up...
I guess for now, this space is just gonna be a place for me to spazz about my every day life
and all the good stuff (and bad unfortunately) that happens to me..
anyways,
today was out of control i guess...
working for my parents
mattresses falling off the roofs of cars
psycho tennis players
riding mattresses down the road
go-karts, renamed by myself "karts-o-death"
swimming for my golf ball through toxic waste...
you know, that kinda good stuff!
anyways, besides the crazy stuff...
kris is at camp, still missing her after not seeing her for two weeks, and then she left again this week
i guess time apart is good since we have always been together on our mission trip and stuff though
i really miss my other friends that i havent seen at all this summer, and now i only have two weeks left
until soccer swallows it whole =(
Angelise - we better get together, and really soon, because i miss you a lot and we need to hang out and TALK =)
or play tennis, or whatever melts ya buttah =o
Yeah, and also, i need some people to convince me that soccer is still fun, because i really hate it right now and dont wanna play it anymore
maybe its my new freedom of being able to drive, but i dunno... its just being a pain in the ass =(
anyways, i just wanted to figure this globber blogger jobber out and say hi to all the kids out there... *the kids!*
love, peace, and chicken grease,
Steve-o